Fuck it off man!!

2009-04-23T21:43:00.000-07:00

24th april..

i lost it..
lost it forever...
man's word cannot be spoken

2009-04-04T07:24:00.000-07:00

4th april..
今天我真的好累..
也许..她真的对我一点感觉也没有了吧..
唉...
我真的不知道要对你说什么,
我明白你不喜欢被逼,
也不会正面回答..
却不想就这样永远地失去了你...

思念
真的叫人好难受哦....

2009-04-02T01:41:00.000-07:00

2nd april..
well..
went st james last nite..
its ladies nite and then its sharon's bdae..
happy bdae sis..
ytd so so ba..
a bit numb of it le..
its all of a sudden tat i think tat gals are nth to me..
maybe.. maybe it just bcoz of...
hais..
suan le ba~~~

2009-03-29T00:22:00.000-07:00

29th march...
well..
once again and ya i move hs again this morning from woodland to khatib..
like wad the ..f...
used to move hs till like addicted..
oh ya..
did propose to 'w'..
but as i expected..
she choosed avoid to answer my question ..
nvm..
i will wait..

2009-03-07T19:11:00.000-08:00

08th mar,
lol well..
a very long time nvr blog alrd..
today a very bad day,
kena kick here and there..
like a ball..
work here and thre..
shit..
i hate it..!!!
u just wait..
i will kb and make hoo ha at base..

2009-02-22T18:54:00.000-08:00

23rd feb..
its like finally...
i blog..
well..
tat day dy sick..
and bought porridge for her to her hs..
she was nt there,
i asked her sis pass her the porridge..
kinda weird..
some feeling like..
there i was happened to listen a radio fm,
and there's a line which impress me a lot..
if some1 can make u love him or her again and again,
tat mean she or he is ur true love..
shld i....???

2008-12-19T21:31:00.000-08:00

20th of dec,
its been so long..
tat i nvr blog..
but as i had said..
my new place cant detect e wireless..
so bo bian lo..
anyway..
got ntg much to say as now im nt feeling well too..
bye all..

2008-12-06T18:38:00.000-08:00

o7th dec,
well..
its been so long tat i had nvr blog..
since i move to new hs..
there's no wireless detected..
so bo bian lo..
see ya all..

2008-11-28T05:46:00.000-08:00

28th nov..
walaoa..sian..
so..
shut up u cb kia..
i noe who u are..
u la hong gan~!!
bo lam pa!!
kannina..
well..
evrything still ok for today..
and tmr gonna move hs again..
so..
gonna sleep nw..

2008-11-27T03:55:00.000-08:00

27th nov..
well..
sry for mia 1 week ya..
coz no time..
so tired can?
somemore who care..
my blog not got gold..
ppl wun read-.-
and then..
im going to move hs this sat..
1st sis,
i hate u this lao gu po so much!!!!
well..
im just wake up and hungry..
laundry haven wash too..
money nt enough somemore..
die~~!

2008-11-16T05:23:00.000-08:00

16th nov..
omg..
im so tired now..
fuck!!
i need slp..
so..
good night!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-11-15T05:11:00.001-08:00

15th nov.
well..
went tm again just now..
sian..
just cut hair..
after tat chat with siti and kian kiat..
as well as see jacinta..
she so bad l..
ignore me..
huhu...
nvm..
think tats all ba..
oh ya..
i look good after my new hair cut!!!
omg .

2008-11-14T05:34:00.000-08:00

14th nov..
well..
as usual..
the stupid line like damn fuck up..
so tat alrdy explain why i din update my blog..
erm..
dunno what are all gals tink abt..
why must guy treat gal like shit then the gal will be more treasure the guy??
ya..
im the kind..
coz when i treat u all so good then u all take it for granted..
so its my turn to be nasty..
fuck care abt u..
thrs a gal work at same place as me..
but nt my colleague,.
think she just came in nt long ba..
suddenly today salleh,my best fren said she keep asking abt me.
=.=
wth..
and then keep looking at me wherever i go..
omg..
i dun care..
u wanna fallen for me?
show me ur heart lo..
yawn..
but nt sure will entertain u..
see my mood ba..
and then suddenly i came to know tat kim did read my other blog..
wtf!!
bt i deleted it alrdy..
and she asked..
why am i going to delete it..
to hell with u la..
when i tried to be with u..
u dun wan..
so wad for u care so much abt the blg huh??
who the hell u think u are??
yawn..
tired..
gonna sleep le..

2008-11-11T05:16:00.000-08:00

11th nov..
omg..
these few day like so bored..
internet gt pb..'
well..
just everytime my boss will change the roster he had gave me..
last min change..
everyday like tat..
wth..
and my teeth still bleeding..
no more mood..
jia lat than gals' period..
and there's a guy ask me whether wana be his bodyguard or nt last 2 days..
wtf..
stupid ang moh like so damn sissy and gay..
eyer..
disgusting..
to some1,
ur blog have ppl read la..
just nvr tag..coz..
hais..i also dunno whether u gt read mine nt?
coz think u had patch with ur very 1st ex rite?
he's a nice guy who truly love u..
do treasure him..
ok?

2008-11-06T06:07:00.000-08:00

06th nov..
the day w/o my irritating supervisor really so easy to pass by..
well..
today im in charge..
today my teeth get better..
bleed lesser..
but tired..
easily feel tired nw..
hais..
old alrdy..
its time for me report to the king of the hell..

2008-11-05T05:12:00.000-08:00

05th nov..
well.. its another day..
make me busy upside down..
im totally worn out..
my teeth still bleeding like nobody's business..
wth..
erm..
why should i ever sad over 'some 1'?
suddenly thr's a stupid guy asked me this..
''do u still miss w''?
and i reply,''i dunno la,u stupididiot can dun ask me tis not''??
den he asked,''who's the gal u love most in ur life''?
and i just remain silent..
he continue..
''is it w''?
i..i dunno..
somehow..maybe ba..
but she's nt longer mine..
we are in 2 diff world..
and den she wun like me ..
but these above line i nvr reply him..
only inside my heart..
hais..
well..
this mth pay like 15xxlike tat..
after deduct all my debt..
like left only 160plus nia..
still have to cut hair like 30 dollars..
but top up..
-.-
wth..
somemore cigg..-.-can die ah..
wadeva la..
she ..maybe going marry le?
anything ba..
i cant do anything..
but anyway..
she will always have my best wish..

2008-11-03T23:46:00.000-08:00

04 nov..
erm..
ntg to do...
just wake up ..
force myself to sleep till so late..
coz budgeting now..
see this coming 7th of nov pay how ba..
after paying all my debt..
and i shall be free le..
wahahaha...
oh ya..
ytd damn sway le..
smoke downstair kena 1st sis saw..
den stupid irritating her go tell 2nd sis,,
den sure whole family noe..
i hate u since i was born to this world 1st sis..
ohh ya..
this few day my teeth like keep bleeding non stop once i wake up..
am i going to die soon??
better ba..

2008-11-03T05:03:00.000-08:00

3rd nov,
well..
im in a mess now..
my mood ..
my job..
anything la..
even ...ntg..nvm..

2008-11-02T05:16:00.000-08:00

02 nd nov,
well..
didn feel sad ..
and nt tat happy..
already bcome emotionless...
wth..
today is 'her' bday..
happy birthday to u..

2008-10-26T07:18:00.000-07:00

26th oct..
well...
officially i dunno wad date and time she and i divorce le..
so,ya..
im single again..
nt tat sad..
and nt very positive too..
maybe just knew it wun last long ba..
coz she just a playful gal..
better break now than later..
coz hurt more..
so..
who's the next gal?
just wait and see ba..

2008-10-24T07:35:00.000-07:00

24th oct..
this mth dam budget again..
1 day 3 meals all eat 1 dollar fried bee hoon..
sian..
as i had expected..
i knew ur heart changed..
and i even suspect u dating other guy too..
if u wanna go..
i won stop u..
bcoz..
i noe im nt fit for any1..

2008-10-16T07:01:00.001-07:00

16 th oct..
lol..wifey i love u lot..

2008-10-15T06:42:00.000-07:00

15th oct..
i love u lao po..

2008-10-14T06:19:00.000-07:00

14th oct 2008
2048 hrs,
lao po wo ai ni..
i swear..
i will try my best to be a good hubby..
i love u!!

2008-10-13T07:18:00.001-07:00

13th oct...
aiyo...
today gt ppl so irritating 1..
nvm abt him le..
fk la..
feel like whack him...
nite

2008-10-12T04:40:00.001-07:00

12th oct..
huat ah!!
finally i win football bet..
like knn buy so many time 4d nt tio..
but win little bit ony..
so consider gt free 1 pkt of cigg le..
ni nabuay..
walao..
today super slack de..
8plus go work,
3 pm can go home but i bk at 5 plus coz buy chendol and another fb game for tmr..
walao..
finally..'
oh ya..
thrs something tat im wondering abt..
some ppl keep chaning her blog url..
bt 4 wad??
i still noe wad..
change number too..
so wad??
i noe it too..
izzit she dun wanna fren with me?
forget it den..
if its the passed tense,
i will mind..
bt now,
its present tense le..
wahahahaha..
now emo is a stranger to me..
keke..
dun evy me..!!

2008-10-11T08:01:00.000-07:00

11th oct..
walaoa..
today gt pm from mauritus coming to my site..
all ppl were so busy for wayang..
act as very polite..
wtf..
oh ya..
any1 intend to buy bmw?
contact me pls?
tag me and i will gif u my contact no..
thx.. nite

2008-10-10T06:17:00.000-07:00

10th oct..
well...
another 1 day has been pass by ..
wow..
today still ok la..
the work like so many problem..
ppl bang down the barrier..
fucker..
made me had to write so many report..
knn!!!!!!
well..
going to save money for my supervisor course..
then the pay gt so much diff!!!!
wtf man..
wahahahaha~!

2008-10-09T06:34:00.000-07:00

9th oct..
ok..its like so fast lo ok?
tmr im gonna in charge again..
hope ntg going wrg..
=.='
haiss..
really miss some1..
u all wun noe..
haiss...
wad to do??
gonna sleep le..

2008-10-08T04:52:00.001-07:00

8th oct..
walaoa..
kanninna..
buy 4d lost again..
fuck!!

2008-10-07T05:17:00.000-07:00

7th oct..
hais.. and then i give up..

2008-10-06T04:09:00.000-07:00

6th oct..
just collected my wp..
stupid company staff always so lazy and irresponsible..
better get fired..
and den..
vanessa,
to love some1..
everything is worth it..
only depends on are u willing..?

2008-10-05T07:44:00.000-07:00

5th oct..
haiss..
gt problem with my job..
fuck up la..
no mood blog le..
vanessa..
i like u 28th sept..
will u give me a chance??

2008-10-04T06:02:00.000-07:00

4thoct
lol..
tmd,knnbccb...
wth..
i buy 8185..
den 4d open 8184..
fucker!!!

2008-10-03T06:19:00.000-07:00

3rd oct..
lol...
today work at pml..
which is bmw show room...
aiyo..
late again..
den the stupid jayanthi keep talking bk when i say her..
fuck la..
u everytime use fon or sleep when work..
think i nvr say den means i scare u??
lol..
gth la..
tmr supervisor off..
i incharge..
hope everything go smooth ba..
amen..

2008-10-01T06:49:00.000-07:00

1st oct..
lol..
start at bmw at 730am..
base call at 930am,
went hyflux instead..
ended at8pm..
wth..
so tired man..
keep sms vanessa..
the whole day/...

2008-09-30T06:18:00.000-07:00

九月三十日,
好快哦,
明天就是开斋节了.
开斋节快乐!!
我的天哦~
最近的脾气好像又变得稍微暴躁了..
惨了!!
不要紧,
这样应该就不会那么容易被人欺负吧...
viko..
u stupid idiot..
dun ever try to take it for granted!!!
i tried to gif in doesn mean im really in wrg..
1 day i will make u noe it..~~!!

2008-09-30T03:10:00.000-07:00

30th sep..
walaoa..
guess wat..
i just gt to noe that im going to be promote as i/c tmr..
which means i will be the biggest if supervisor is nt ard..
wahahaha...
and my o.e say if im good enuff..
maybe will be promote to supervisor too
but depends la..
if gt new site 1st..
nvm,
everything start from basic..
just do it when ppl ask u to..
coz u can learn it btw..
isnt it??
so,keep it up s/o chang..
u can do it..
aim for the o.e post..
make ppl under u..
wahaha..
show them ur colour..
well..
thx sanmao and hong zhi..

2008-09-28T07:55:00.000-07:00

28th sept..
walao..
so fast end of sept le..
its like im going to be old faster..
wad old ppl say is true..
once u are in 20..
the coming next yr will be very fast..
oh ya..
my blog is like fucking damn long no ppl view like tat..
alrdy grew spider web...
wth...
and then my work is like 12hrs..
fucking long time..
but now used to it alrdy..
well..
there's some misunderstanding btween viko and i..
dear..
give me some time..
dun treat me like that pls..
u also gt so mant guys fren..
so wads wrg with i gt so many female fren??
lol...
everytime u also said u are nt angry,
bt in fact..
u did angry..
studip la u...

2008-09-19T07:21:00.000-07:00

19 sept,
finally i passed my exam @16september...
its like so .....
hais...
so now.. oficially my name is s/o chang...
sian..
been emo..
used to it u bitch...

2008-09-09T03:55:00.000-07:00

9月9日,
在死神掉下眼泪的刹那间,
他才发现原来自己真的爱上了她..
死神越是想抹去自己脸上的眼泪,
眼泪就越是流个不停..
他明白她不会喜欢自己,
他也明白自己没办法忘记她..
唉!!..
寂寞噢~~!

2008-09-07T00:32:00.001-07:00

7th sep..
so fast..
and now sept liao..
seriously..im damn tired now..
and somemore kena ps by kim..
and ya..
its again..
oh ya..
i changed my hp number at sg le..
coz lost my last sim card..
well..
damn sian..
received a sms from d...
haiss..

ini hanya utk mu,
dewi..
cinta itu memang begitu,
ku percaya,
kau adalah cahaya ku..
tolonglah..jgn tinggalkan ku,
sebab ku amat perlukan mu..

lol

2008-08-29T20:21:00.001-07:00

lol...
and then cant fall asleep coz as im at sharon's hs..
walao...
she's going out le...
so bo bian lo...
think im going out soon...
kim...
im really like so sad lo... haiss...
but will u ever notice me???...

2008-08-29T12:06:00.000-07:00

30th aug..
well...
wth..
haiss..
random..
accidently found someone's blog...
it doesnt help anymore??
useless??
i dunno...
coz the feeling is like...
haiss...
forget it...
came sg ytd,
saw samuel at east point..
den ask him for a drink...
till nite den going to mac see aunties..
all of them see me like treasure like tat..
maybe tats the feeling im lookin forward..
so sweet..
haiss..
been interview for security officer..
i noe,
wad u all gonna say...
"huh?u serious nt"?
"y this job out of the others?"
blah blah blah....
wad the...
nvm..
just temporary ba...
phew...
kinda miss some1..
bt,
is she missing me rite nw too?
emo....

2008-08-25T23:21:00.000-07:00

26th aug..
well..
still cant find a job..
nvm..
i gif u all my burden oh my lord..
i noe u will arrange it for me..
god,
i love u..
well..
kim,i love u too..
but i just dunno how and why u are like ignore me..
izzzit i think too much??
haiss..

2008-08-21T11:17:00.000-07:00

22th august..
well..
been lookin for job @ sg for quite long alrdy..
still..
there's no sign of success...
wtf..
going broke soon
my bank account keep drop
wth..
later going interview..
hope i gt the job..
wadeva the job is..
jus do it..
as long as i gt the $$
pray to the god..
amen..
pls let me get the job as u noe i need it very much lord..

2008-08-17T23:05:00.000-07:00

18th aug..
well..
ytd went klg parade 4 bowling after 2 days course in church..
and then..
there's two small sister 14yrs old..
said wanna play but dunno how to register..
lol..
then i help them lo..
bt 1 of them said dun wanna play..
so..
she asked,
can i join??
ok, i said..
if bowling keep straight is consider good..
she..
excellent..
coz wash the longkang all the way..
hahaha
damn cute..
well....
after that..

2008-08-10T21:53:00.000-07:00

11th august..
well..
9th of aug i resign the job at jungle officially..
its short yet unbearable..
so miss the friend there..
the job there so easy..
just supervise ppl..
the free like ntg to do..
my skin turn black as i expected..
my leg gt many scar..
and then.. i saw many animals ..beast there..
and even stung by scorpion..
haiss..
no 1 ever will miss me..

2008-07-24T01:45:00.000-07:00

24TH JULY..
omg..
my flu still haven getting well..
what the hell...
and then..
ytd..
finally she reply le..
haiss...
gtg..bye

2008-07-20T23:45:00.000-07:00

21st july...
shit..
went bank for open an acc..
bt cant..
coz need original ic..
and i lost it..
so bo bian..
til now my flu and cough haven get well..
am i going die soon??
hope so..

2008-07-19T23:05:00.000-07:00

20th july..
well..
went church juz nw...
its been dunno how long nvr go le...
haiss...
been nose running for 2 weeks le..
due to quit smoking..
i cough terrible too...
i give myself a bd gift..
and thats 1 quit smoking for 1 mth...
of course..
i will continue quit it after my bd...
well...
ytd did wait for her sms..
but too bad..
she din..
as i expected..
nvm..
haiss..
just feel like kinda disappointed..

2008-07-18T01:47:00.000-07:00

18th july...
well..
the 32'' flat sony tv is coming..
and the 29'' had been throw away..
this tv nt bad..
but still think its very small..
hope can get bigger 1...
well..
it only cost 2k plus..
and..
ya..
did sms her at early in the morning ba..
well..
hope her attachment and exam goes well..

2008-07-14T22:25:00.000-07:00

well...
had lost my ic when i club at st james..
wth...
so made a report..
is like scared ppl use it to make loan from loan shark..
shit the ppl..
well..
kinda miss some1..
oh yea..
she did rmb my number..
and she noe my malaysia number too..
haiss...
4get it..
sister told me this..
if i till love her..
i should let her noe then..
well..
i did it..
but..

2008-07-11T16:16:00.000-07:00

12th july..
well..
did went pasir ris park for bbq..
till 6am plus den back hm..
slp at sister's hs..
so later maybe going james...
er..
well..
did sms 'her'..
but she din reply me..
wth...
kinda disappointed...
well..
i can only say ntg abt it...

2008-07-10T20:03:00.000-07:00

11th july...
ok..
its been a week since my last blog..
no more new list for death note..
well..
maybe G.O.D got no mood for the moment...
been eating much more than just bk to malaysia nowadays..
wth...
later going bk to s'pore maybe??
sharon,my sister been asking(tempting )me
lol...
haiss...
i tot i can forgot abt "u"
but in the end,
i found that i couldnt..
maybe ..
its the promise..
i noe u will ask me to forget it..
and i noe,
u will say,
come on,its been so long alrdy...
haiss.. iwanna forget it too..
but seems like my heart still gt the love be wid u...
i din let go..
but just cover over somewhere inside my heart..
im nt sure will u read this..
but ya,
its u..
its only u from the 1st place till now...
no 1 can replace u from my heart...
been miss call u in diff number...
but deny my own identity..
u should noe its me..
coz the msg's symbol..
haiisss...
dunno later pa and ma allow me goin singapore nt?

2008-07-03T20:43:00.000-07:00

4th july..
well..
been few days nvr blog le..
coz broadband at hm alrdy cut..
so only can on9 seldom...
wel...
so boring can..
everyday like...
slp and eat and slp...
totally bcome pig alrdy...
wat the...
haisss...
sian...
miss sharon..
mis all my fren...

2008-06-29T12:45:00.000-07:00

30th june...
well..
later i have to back hometown le...
time flies...
somemore pa,ma,sis keep nag me and asked me to go bk..
fed up..
really wanna run away from hm..
well...
last post gt many word type wrg..
sry to the readers..
haiss..
i hate it coz have to leave..
seriously..
i dunno when can i bk here again..
maybe nt anymore??
well..
just now tot of going tamp and find sharon them de..
but ..
too bad..
they all today finish work early..
so cant give them a surprise...
im so sad to leave here..
especially u..
oh ya..
2days ago..
which is sat,
as i said,
went clubbin wid sharon and the gang..
well..
nt really enjoy it coz hungry then cant dance more..
somemore my last day..
but when finish clubbin..
william drunk then keep like stupid like that..
keep act blur say that very romantic den anyhow xxxxsabel..
then sharon suddenly xxxxme too..
i was shocked..
haiss..
gonna miss them all...
well...
i love and miss u lots sharon..
u are the best...
hope u will read this..
i promise i will be back asap...
nite all...

2008-06-28T00:34:00.000-07:00

28th june..
well..
its damn boring lo...
like gt nth to do...
wth...
so..
come ang blogging lo...
later think going st james as usual ba..
have fun then sure time flies..
there is someone seems like totally disappear from my mine...
but ytd suddenly lay kiang mention abt her name..
den...
wth...
nvm..
forget it..
erm...
dunno lo...
im damn hungry now but lazy to go and buy thing eat..
somemore outside so hot..
eeeeww...
better slack at home...
see ya later

2008-06-27T09:43:00.000-07:00

28th june
well...
these two days din goin many place coz of...
my budget budget and..budget...
shit lo..
my family like prison officer like that..
keep call me ..
say dun anyhow spend $$!!!!
i noe lo..
i did ...
haiss...
went raffles place met lay kiang..
den met sharon,jolyn,and chris..
take 291 to there then suddenly say wan go back tm and eat..
=.='
in the end..
eat at kfc..
jolyn very funny,
she said she dun wanna eat the drumstick bcox of..
the drumstick got chicken smell=.='
wth...
haha...
went bk after that...
kinda disappointed..
coz nvr stay longer...
haiss...
nite all..

2008-06-26T11:57:00.000-07:00

27th june..
well..
so so boring lo
coz budget this time..
gonna save $$
so cant anyhow spent $$
somemore my acc is like keep drop than rise..
fuck lo..
wake up 3 plus ytd..
den feel dam hungry..
lazy go eat..
end up slp bk..
till 7 den call sharon whether wan eat tgt nt..
suppose to meet at her working place..
but end up meet at tm..
coz she wanna eat ramen..
well..
we both v hungry..
so b4 she came..
i bought a mc chkn..
sharon came right after i bought it nt long..
sat at mac den eat wid bro,harith...
lol..
den smoke tgt at b1..
after that went eat ajisen ramen lo..
i order an ajisen ramen and sister order an crayfish ramen..
quite nice..
den went open plaza for smoking after dinner..
(supose to be my bf)
den...
went for movie..
saw jia wei...
bought 2 tix for ''wanted''
sharon said she wan to buy a mentos coz of ...
scared later watch movie nose running..
the movie like very funny lo..
and nt bad..
went to mac again after that...
well...
lalala....
chit chat a while more den send sharon back..
anyway..
thx sharon..
u are so so sweet..
nite..

2008-06-25T07:24:00.000-07:00

25th june..
well...
the time now is 22.24pm...
and yeah..
im back to singapore again!!!!
yeahoooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so fun can..
well..
any1 noe well me sure noe where am i going later...
coz today is wednesday!!
wow...
gonna change now..
b4 offline..
to mavis,
im nt angry but dun understand ...
his offday nt only that day..
im goin back maybe wun even back here..
but u still choose to acc him..
well..
since u 2 are stead,
wad can i do??
still rmb when b4 u two bcome stead..
who help u 2??
who acc u when u said that its so weird to be wid him>>??
u forget it..
den now...
haiss..
nvm..
let it be..

2008-06-23T01:46:00.000-07:00

23rd june..
well..
just finish dye my hair...
omg..
i did twice coz of the colour nt bright enought..
den wash hair like dunno how many times lor..
phew...
am i really that good??
only realize that many ppl told me they miss me after i leave..
i only noe that i scold ppl when im there..
im sux..
anyway..
i will miss them all...
jus back home for two days..
but feel miserable...
from worse to worst..
to hui ning,
ya..sure will miss u all...
to hong zhi,
omg..u did read my blog??
well..
did went clubbin when sat which is the day b4 i leave...
so so enjoy yet so so sad..
the time that day flies so fast...
went breakfast wif william..sharon,chris,bel..and vaness..
haiss..
gonna miss them badly too...
nvm..
wait 4 me..
when im in charge le,
sure i will be back!!!
i swear and i promise..

2008-06-20T15:59:00.000-07:00

21june..
yeehah!!!
well...
im so boring just now..
i hate zouk..
so went phuture...
wif meldon,jy,martin,and sl...
well...
sharon they all did join us...
but went st james in the end..
haiss...
just feel that love will nt last long now...
and even just now when dance at phuture,
so many gals try and wanted to dance wid me..
i just ignore...
somemore nt really gt mood to dance alrdy...
oh yea...
last two days,
which is thursday,
sharon,vaness,chris,jolyn,issabel,meldon,jie ying,me and another guy ..
i forgot his name alrdy..
so sry...
we all went bbq at sengkang..
its a last min bbq ok..
so mainly is meldon and i organize it...
we bought marinate thing till like2 hrs like that...
wow...
did have fun..
somemore 'zi high'...
haha..
phew....
love the gang so so so much.....
den...
eveything should be ending tmr..
well...
oh yea..
had deleted some 'stranger's ' msg...
well...
i dun mind and dun care...
its my way...

2008-06-17T11:06:00.000-07:00

6月18日,
well.
2days ago..
which is monday..
went tanjong pagar and cancel my permit..
after that meet dearest 2nd sis and bro-in-law at bugis..
buy thing eat..
then walk to orchard..
see gucci thingy at paragon..
then go taka see gucci again..
after that see lv ..
then bro in law wan buy a wallet like 300bucks!!
just a normal small wallet..
after that meldon sms jio go johor chiong..
went malaysia and play..
disco,karaoke..etc...
well..
with sharon ..meldon and the gang..
seriously..
i really dun like ''william''
is like he think he gt money..
hen he can do anything he wan..
he wun think 4 others...
wad the fuck..
4get it..
ya...
must thx kang hong for the help...
u are my best brother ever...
i noe u are most loyal to me..

其实什么叫做爱情?
人类不一定要有它不是吗?
为什么我身旁的每一个人都没有一个是有美满的爱情?
难道这就是死神的命运的注定??
唉!!~~
妈,
你真伟大..
长得这么大..
这是我第一次发觉原来我的性格跟你最像...

真爱,
早在很久以前就被封印..
没人能打开..
因为它早已不存在..

2008-06-14T15:20:00.000-07:00

15 th june...

well...

quite long time nvr blog alrdy...

just random and blog out wad i did these few days..

11th of june,
went crew outing...
omg...
even the ppl like sam also can be promoted...
is like wth!!!
nvm...
well...
theres a new crew name j...
she's so so cute can??
walaoa...
haha...
just now work did at kitchen wif her...
its so...
nvm...
but the time like flies very fast...
got her number at nite..
thx to hui ning...
went st james power hs again just now with sharon,jolyn..
and the gang....
wow...
help joslyn buy dunno how many shot...
today quite boring abit...
later is my last day le...
haiss...
just mis them but...
something just beyond my control..
i wanted to stay..
but my pa..
he's so weak..
hais..
im really worry abt him..

well...
tag reply...
to coolman...
who u?? ur name like so familiar le..
to sister...
well...
as i said..
i wanted to stay too..
but...
haiss...
think no1 will miss miss miss me....

2008-06-09T13:42:00.000-07:00

10th june...
well..
dam boring can??
been went clubbing with sharon and the gang...
wow..
is like so so fun...
1st time so many ppl accompany me clubbing..
well...
to sister,
u really noe me well...
noe wads happened when i mc..
hehe..
shhh.....

secret...
erm...
going clubbing again this coming wednesday...
hopefully la...
hehe..
well..
today got 2 gals coming..
chit chat abt blah blah blah~~~
den accidently saw them kept looking at me..
den later come 1 more gal..
look at me again...
den said very loud..
nt bad la...
is like...so syok!!
haha..
well..no mood alrdy..
gonna go and rest..
bubbye

2008-06-06T11:26:00.000-07:00

6月7日,
死亡的第66章...
今天,死神用心灵感应和死神之母联络..

死神:母亲,好久没见你和父亲了..你们还好吗?
死神之母:我儿..我们还好,你何时才要回返死神的国度?
死神:母亲,就快了..父亲还好吗?
死神之母:还在等死医的报告...
死神:唉...

就这样断去了联络...
死神茫然着...
一整天没心情..
就在这时候,
他看见了一个女生..
熟悉的面孔..
唉...
为什么??
不要紧..死神已经不再为女人伤心...

2008-06-05T13:35:00.000-07:00

6月6日,
死亡的第65章:
这一天,
死神的笔记本中又多了一个新的名单.
此人真该死..
原因:懒得说...
结论:此人不得好死..
唉!..
原本我也不想这样,
是你逼我的..
我对你的语气那么好,
好得就连我自己也不敢相信.
结果你还得寸进尺,
越来越销帐..
你要投诉,
我没阻止你,
我还支持你!!!
去啊!!
我不怕...是你自己发神经!!

有时候别人讨厌你,
并不代表你不好.
而是因为他们不如你,
又或者是你踩到他们的尾巴..
我相信,
我就是因此而被世人讨厌...
哈哈哈!!
要我认错??
除非是我真的做错,
不然你休想!!!!!
顾客永远是对的?
(狗屁)
每个人的忍耐都有限,
不要越过就好..
否则就会死得很难堪...
不要以为你有几个臭钱就很大,
钱?老子有的是...
我也是个顾客,
但我并不会因为这样而像你一样嚣张!!!!
只可惜..
我不能控制这死亡笔记本里名单的死亡时间...
不然,
你将会是第一个..
而且是现在,马上,立刻..

对了,
最近死神又开始喜欢上clubbing...
认识了些许''朋友''
我说过,
我喜欢黑暗的角落...
这正是个好去处...
前两天还和大龙一起去dbl o...
不错啦!!..
这是死神第一次跳这么多舞...
还有女生想搭讪勒~~
哇哈哈哈!!
女人,
想接近我??
随便你,
我奉陪....

希望能在这剩下的短短几天内尽量去clubbing...
好了..
死亡之门快关了!!

我得快点赶进去....

2008-06-03T12:46:00.000-07:00

6月11日,
死神的第64篇日记..
今天尤如往常,
死神没有心情工作..
已经厌倦了这重复了好几千遍的动作...
有时连脾气都懒得发..
唉...
真的累了..
真的看透了..
真的不想再逗留...
不要紧,
再忍吧..
多11天就好...

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
(的确,最好不要再爱)
也许命运的签只让我们遇见
(只是遇见,不是相恋)
只让我们相恋
(狗屁)
这一季的秋天,
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片
(根本不会幸福)
要我怎么捡?
(没兴趣捡)...

唉...
搞不懂啊..
人类啊人类,
为什么要恋爱勒?
像死神一样不是很好吗??
想别人死就让他死..(整死)
想去哪里就去哪里...
脑筋虽然奸诈,
但何乐而不为呢??
反正别人也会和我这黑暗的使者一样..(xxx)
好累啊..
不写噜...

2008-06-02T03:55:00.000-07:00

well..
time flies very fast ,
especially when u feel happy..
but..
for G.O.D..
its the same..
tou he din feel happy so much..
sometimes..
happy this word can consider as a stranger to him..

有些事情不用言语来表达就能够明白,
有些感觉不用说出来就已经能够被看出来..
明明是知道的,
却因为害怕所以没说出口,
也因为没说出口而不去面对.
当勇气已经足够时,
缘分却又已经离开了.
也许是自己想得太多,
又或许是时间不对....

haiss...
13days more..

2008-06-02T03:46:00.000-07:00

2ND MAY,
我喜欢坐在黑暗的角落,
看着别人的一举一动.
在黑暗中的我,行动总是比较自由自在.
因为我不喜欢别人注意我,
问一些关于我的事.
反之,
当我在黑暗中,
我能更加清楚地观察别人.
能知道谁在撒谎,
谁最真诚.我,
黑暗中的使者,
对于很多事物都很看透.
但,
我不一定会说出来.
也许有时候真的应该隐藏我这黑暗的一面..

2008-05-29T07:13:00.000-07:00

29th may..
well..
ytd went st james for clubbin..
its so long time ever since my last time going..
and ya..
i noe a gal name sharon at tuesday..
she's sweet can..
haha..
its fate to meet her..
and ya..
im went clubbin wid her too..
erm..
noe her fren too..
jy,jason,jolyn..and a guy.. really forgot his name le..
sry ya..
haha..
drank a lot..
ard more than half bottle martell...
end up in the end vomit 10 plus time..
=.='
so today i mc... haiss...
did haircut too..
so handsome can??
haha..
ok..gona stop here..
nite all

2008-05-28T07:53:00.000-07:00

28th may.
22.54pm..
well..
不要问我为什么我会那么绝情..
不要问我为什么我会那么冷淡..
试一试摸一摸自己的良心,
你自己曾经如何对待我?
我对你不舍..
你却置之不理..
那种等待,
那种寂寞..
你永远都不会明白..
因为......................................
你只顾自己的感觉..

2008-05-27T13:01:00.000-07:00

为什么缘分总在最后才赶来?
为什么到最后才出现那么多的机会?
可惜的是,
对我来说通往爱情的那扇门已经被封锁住了.
而钥匙也早已被我丢下深海,
再也找不回来.
是我太无情了吗?
还是因为我看透了?
又或许是不想再被伤害?
这种种的问题,
我想是永远都解不开了...

2008-05-22T12:42:00.000-07:00

23rd may,
well..
23days more to go..
was sleep late and almost late for work..
but heng nvr..
even punch in earlier..
today down closer..
brother nvr come..
wow!!
eleein do closing,
si bei funny..
ask me to tell harith be careful..
haha..
later maricel do closing again!!
nvm,
not my business too..
who care..
im doing afternoon shift!!yeah!!
well..
seems like something change,
nvm..nt my business too..
when going crew room after reached tm,
came out feel gt few pair of eyes keep looking at me..
nvm,
hack care..
jux walk away..
shawn say something..
but i my mind cannot hear it..
ya..must be illusion..
well..
today pak sin again..
quite fast..
dunno why,
maybe gd mood??
haha!!
nah!

当失去以后,
开始怀念所有的一切.
后诲当初没有好好把握.
希望能够让一切再从来,
让自己好好地祢补,
紧紧地握着..
但有时候,
就算真的一切都如愿再从来,
那感觉已经不是自己所期望的了!!

死神就这样张开翅膀,
噗!!
飞走了..

2008-05-20T13:17:00.000-07:00

21st may,
well..
time flies..
and its alrdy 21 st today..
i noe its alrdy a set and no more miracle will be appear..
but seems like im still got little hope inside my heart,
hoping that xxxxx will contact me..
but as i said its impossible,
well..
wads bygone is alrdy bygone to her..
as for me......
i really dunno..
haiss..
been fed up when today doing work..
got an auntie name duno wad..
lets call her x..
im order taker while she runner,
she serve 1 happy meal in abt 5 mins..
i din sound her..
coz i said i wanna change my temper..
so i bear wid it..
the next customer come,
order happy meal again!
she said me,
hey boy,next time when serve hm pls give toy..
i have been felt provoked..
but still i bear wid it,
after that,
ctm come and ask for sauce while im serveing other ctm..
she stand there look like nobody business..
so i gave ctm the sauces..
and ya,
im angry again..
but...
im bear wid it again..
she serve very long time,
so i decided to help her so can serve faster somemore at peak hr,
i dun wan kena gb no 100%
and after i help her i said dun jux wait for burger but pls take other order's drink 1st pls,
den,
she said im very proud,v rude..
wat the fuck!!!!
i bear wid it again!!!!!
jibai....
after that,
i help her take water,
she stand at the middle,
so i cannot take ice..
i said this'excuse me,u mind let me take ice pls'???
den she said this make me fed up..
''may i noe wad's ur name''?
i show her my name tag..
''pls rmb my name,go complain as u like,i dun scared u''
by the time jeeny is just around and chat wid boss..
she said im v rude to her..
hey hey hey!!!
bcareful,
u are consider very lucky alrdy,
if u nt attachment,
i had scold u since the 1st time u make me angry!!
u stupid idiot..
if nt bcox u are old and i respect u..
u think im so nice huh??
every1 got their limit..
dun step over it..
i will shout u infrot of managers and ctms or even jenny(oc)
who care,,
as long as im rite...
fuck off u stupid old folk..
see wad??
keep see me when i going in kitchen..
i noe ur manager too..
dun think the tiger nt biting is a sick cat..!!
once u step my tail..
i will make u sorry ..
oh no,
its sorry also useless..
this is for u below...
CAUTION:
CHILDREN BELOW 18 YRS OLD ARE NT ALLOW TO READ..

FUCK U U OLD FOLK,
PPL RESPECT U ULAO KOK KOK,
BUT WAD U DID IS ONLY LIKE KAM GONG!!
KNNBCCB!!
DIAO NI LAO BU DIAO NI HAI!!
ARGHXX....

forget it..
phew..
had supper wid harith,muhsin,uncle yeo at pasir ris..
coz harith gt many 7th days recently..
he said he wan treat us..
had mee bandung..
its nice!!
well..
jenny didchat wid me ,faizal and a malaysian crew dunno wad name,
she ask her nt to tell us that she arldy gt bf..
wth..
srry i dun interest in india ok??
den i told jenny,
so sry,
i gt no more love for gals..
well..
she gt ntg to say..

well...
24days more to go..
less than a mth..
think she wun contact me s she alrdy deleted my fon no,
somemore...
hais...
forget it..

2008-05-15T12:57:00.000-07:00

16th may..
well..
abt few days nvr blog ba..
nvm also..
no 1 will wanna read mine too..
well..
did went tm to meet angie and geral for dinner..
its like finally-.-
coz from few mths ago ask her and den kena put aeroplane ..
nvm,
anw,its nice..although its only a short while..
went pasta..
they start eating 1st coz i was late..
eating beef ball..
wel..
after that went cs for shop a while..(onlt they shop)
on the way saw bernet,
so he follow..
was surprise that he's gonna married and b a father..
erm..
did go back and gym..
was happy and feel good tou im very tired..
still,i cannot fall asleep,
seriously dunno why..
had made my own meal start from today..
gonna follow my food schedule from today onwards..
i wanna grow big!!
anw..
ytd trained my tight..
damn pain can..
but nvm,
it means that im growing..
wahahaha..

haiss..
suddenly tot of wad some1's blog..
she will marry any1 that who take away her 1st....
she lied..
and..
nvm..

其实死神根本就没有什么笔记本,
死神所谓的笔记本,
是他的心和脑袋里的记忆还有他的真爱..
死神曾经这样说道,
他是不会离开拥有死神笔记本的人半步.
除非是此拥有者自行弃权.
前年的某一天,
死神把他的笔记本给了一个女生.
死神很照顾她,
给这女生她要的一切.
因为不是这么容易就能得到死神的笔记本.
但是有一天,
因为女生觉得死神天天和自己在一起很烦,
便自行弃绝了笔记本的拥有权,
虽然死神觉得很难过,
但他决定尊重女生的要求.
其实,
死神的心里面仍然对女生念念不忘.
他期望着女生有一天会回心转意回到自己的身边,
但是,
日子一天一天的过去了.
女生始终没有回头的意思,
死神开始绝望,
发誓从此以后不再让任何人拥有自己的笔记本...

待续...

2008-05-10T13:50:00.000-07:00

5月11日,
凌晨4点51分,
宁静的夜晚里,
迫使孤独的死神开始胡思乱想..
他很寂寞,
想找些事情来做..
因为只有这样他才不会从犯过错..
想着想着,
就这样..
他开始发起脾气来...
因为真的没事做..
他开始拿起手中的笔记本...
别误会,
他并不是在写名单..
而是随便涂鸦-.-
天空下起雨来,
他的心情更是烦躁.
他轻轻地叹了一口气..
唉!!
说道:''这世界真是无聊啊!''
说完便悄悄地往回死神的国度...

2008-05-09T14:19:00.001-07:00

10th may...

well...

ytd din sleep after work..

coz go california for work out!!

yeah hoo~!!

feel great can~!!??

so nice..

tou my mucles now very pain..

but really enjoy it..

phew..

later wanna do it again..

my motivation is coming back..

but seems like its too late too-.-

nvm..

still carry on..

haha..

er...

closing grill..

finish at 3 exact..

well..

its nt me slow..

but it shows that im punctual..

hahahaha..

and im able to finish my job within time..

lalalala!~~~

officially..

i now address myself as--死神

我不是因为具有死神的力量而称自己为死神..

而是因为死神的世界是孤独的..

冷漠且残酷..

无情,惹人厌是我的个性..

我不想改..也改不了..

你可以对我好,

可是我却不一定会对你好..

当我对你笑的时候,

请小心!!

因为死神的脸上不应该有表情!!

小心我!远离我..

因为你不会了解我在想什么,

我要的是什么..

也许,

我的死亡笔记名单里的下一个受害者....

很可能......

就是你~!!!!!!!!!!

2008-05-08T13:08:00.000-07:00

怎么隐藏我的悲伤,

你离去的背影

你的花香来得匆忙

一瞬间地灰散

来不及挽回,我已经跟不上

你狠心丢下我独自的离开

让我自己一个人悲伤

我会看着你,

慢慢忘记你

直到最后那一站

想念的季节

拥抱着怀念

都不能挽回这一切

我会忍着痛

慢慢离开你

至少这是你要的

希望这一切你不会发现

因为我的爱不必让你知道..

2008-05-08T12:54:00.000-07:00

9th may..
well..
as usual..
closing just now..
pak sin again...
well..
dunno why so fast my turn again..
din bring my glove..
so end up use the ''public'' 1..-.-
which is the behind then any1 who forgot can use it..
well..
today finish faster..
dunno why..
depend on my mood ba..
still rmb last time do till ot 5 mins..
my performance been down ever since..
no matter do wad station..
haiss..
nvm,something most important is gone..
once lost it..u can nvr get it back..
coz the opportunity is over..
and somemore the timing is nt right anymore..
phew..
really have to admit that im getting older...
but when everytime i said so..
auntie them will say this..
''u like this call old,then v not very old till si bei jia lat?''
-.-
37 days more..
well..
i had to admit that i should really face the fact..
'' ''
dun ask me wad..
let it be my own secret ba..
its useless even say out anw..
phew..
should i keep nt reading her blog or..
well..
maybe really should gif up..
sian...
tmr dunno do wad time..
forgot see schedule..
die..later morning call them..
nite..

2008-05-07T12:14:00.000-07:00

不管前面的路有多长..

就算知道那是坎坷的..

经过之后也一定会留下伤痕..

我还是会坦然,勇敢地面对..

哪怕把自己弄得满身是伤..

最后剩下的,

也只有我对你那在世界上最真诚的爱!!

我爱你!!

2008-05-07T11:57:00.000-07:00

8th may...
well...
so its 38days more..
and i still countdown myself..
erm...
just now my day just so so lo...
wanna go ehub see see de..
but like very far like that..
so intend to watch movie iron man again at amk hub..
but end up call lay kiang for lim teh at raffles place..
well..
met him ard 7 plus ba..
we talk alot..
till 9 plus den he go home annd i go amk hub 4 my movie..
well..
the show start at 10 pm,
so i eat beef noodle soup as usual as when i go amkhub..
show ended at 12 am..
wana eat supper nearby..
but long q..
so take cab back home den walk to kopitiam eat fried bee hoon..
oh well..
and then ...
online ..till now..
haiss...
really ntg much happening...
maybe this is how my life should ending here...
oh yea..
b4 i forget,
i read a guy's blog..
he criticize her gf like so good..
the word he use is so perfect..
his experience jux like me..
well..
but its all bygone le..
gonna sleep now..

maybe she really forget abt me..
coz that im so irritating to her..
so...
nvm....

2008-05-06T12:52:00.000-07:00

2008-05-06T12:13:00.000-07:00

7th may..
well..
was mc on 6th may..
see dr..
tell her my body keep feel itchy..
somemore easy to feel tired no matter how long i had slept..
she tested my blood pressure..
she said my blood pressure is consider high..
and she tested my urine..
i wait..
and wait..
and wait...
result was coming out..
no diabetes..
all ok..
she said maybe that im really too exhaust for work..
and then..
the medical fee's like suckkkkkkkkkkksssssss!!!
41dollars...
-.-'
so i was force to withdraw my money again..
well..
coz b4 i see dr i jux draw $50..
went tm watch iron man after that..
its cool!
i wanna watch it 1 more time!!!~
phew..
oh yea,
thx mavis sister for help me changing this blogskin..

在这蒙蒙胧胧的世界,
雾里看不清是谁.
缘分悄悄经过我身边,
静静的,渐渐的离开我.
已经来不及,
再也挽不回,
不停哭着泪水撒满面...
断了的姻缘,
不再像从前,
就算再努力也没办法挽回.
过去的一切,
记忆早已被瓦解,
直到最后我还是没能了解,,,

2008-05-05T12:57:00.000-07:00

6TH MAY,
well..
nth much to blog..
as u noe,
my life damn it bored..
nt much happening..
just work and slp and eat..
repeated and repeat again..
lol..
today close center island..
well..
1.30 finish..
and faizal's daughter alrdy full month..
dunno wad to gif him man..
=.='
wow..
so nice..
got own children...
erm..
been accompany harith to posb due to his atm card been''swallowed''
by the atm machine..
he damn fucking asshole tell me this..
im shy to go in ..
i asked,''why u shy''?
he replied,''the girl at the counter so pretty ,i so shy when i saw her''
-.-''
wat the fuck..!!
he will feel shy??
haha....
then in the end,he failed coz of his shyness...
well...
later have to accompany him again..
who ask that v are brother..??
haiss..
bro,
im gonna leave soon..
who's gonna talk ,chat,play...wid u when after im gone??
really miss those days that we had fun..
the brotherhood so strong and tight..
feel so guilty and sad..
pls,promise me u will learn to be strong and...
rmb as much as u can 4 the closing..
dun always depent on others..
so when u are talking..
ppl wun ignore u..
knowledge is ur only power...
haiss..

40days more left,
well..
seems like its really gonna b comes true wad i had said..
为什么这样子?
你拉着我说你有些犹豫,
怎么这样子?
雨还未停你却撑伞要走..
已经习惯不去阻止你,
过好一阵子你就会回来..
印象中的爱情好像顶不住那时间..
为什么这样子?
你看着我说你已经决定..
我拉不住你..
他的手应该比我更暖..
过去变成了日记,
变化成回忆,
慢慢被忘记..
印象中的那爱情好像并不在这世界..
所以你拒绝..

2008-05-03T13:16:00.000-07:00

4th may,
well..
as usual,
i do closing just now..
pak sin..
mikel ask me plan myself...
i think its quite too long 4 me nt doing it..
so i planned i myself do it..
customer quite ok..
today's work also quite easy coz im inside kitchen..
hearsay many ppl mc..
haiss..
well..
when finish closing,
shawn ask me open back door and see a gal name stella...
but when i open...
stupid brother..harith suddenly shout this..
''lai lai lai...free fuck or 20 bucks the most''-.-''
wat the...
somemore bhind say..
''got free condom as well''-.-
the gal saw my face=.= nt his..
my image totally spoilt..thx to him...
oh yea..
so fast and its alrdy been 4th le..
haven write my black and white le..
left 42 days only..
and den..
haiss..
nvm,
no1 will miss me..
maybe thats good too...
she only will care abt his attention on her but nt me..
she cried when i ignore her in the past,
but when after she get what she want..
she will start feel that the thing or person is no longer important..
and when i feel sad as how she felt last time...
she was like cruel and totally ignore my pain..
nvm,
it make me see through how cruel she can be,
how heartless she can be,
how selfish she can be....
a lot a lot more...
haiss...maybe ...

2008-05-02T13:52:00.000-07:00

3rd may..
well.. doesnt wanna do this at the 1st place..
but kena sabo by mavis..
so,
now have to start wid it..
1)Q:how many children do u wan?
A:-.-''...depends...
2)Q:what u want the most now??
A:be the richest man in the world
3)Q:if u can have 1 more dream to come true,what would it be?
A:im the only 1 she love..
4)Q:what are u afraid to lose now?
A:myself
5)Q:do u believe in being in love forever??
A:nope..(obviously bcoz im being hurt deeply)
6)Q:if u meet some1 u love,would u confess to him or her??
A:too bad,no more love in me...
7)Q:what would u do when u are feeling down and depressed?
a:keep quiet and emo..ignore other's concern..
8)q:what are the requirement that u wish from other half?
a:im the only 1 she love..im the 1st place in her heart
9)q:which type of person do u like most?
a:depends..
10)q:do u cherish every single of ur friendship?
a:not really
11)q:how do u feel abt life now?
a:its sux..
12)q:what do u think is the most important thing in ur life?
a:money
13)q:do u find it a necessary for u have a bf or gf?
a:erm...seriously i dunno..
14)q:what do u want ur friend to be like?
a:dunno..jux dun b too sia lan is ok alrdy..
15)q:what kind of friend do u hope to be in ur friends' eyes?
a:the 1 who they cant live w/o...
16)q:if u have a change,which part of ur character would u like to change?
a:being so kind hearted..i should be more heartless..
17)q:if u are feeling low 1 day,who will u go to?
a:obviously..nt her..coz of....so i decided to go to jesus!!
18)q:have u ever really love some1 b4?
a:yes..but too bad its nt a good ending..she din treasure our relationship well!!
19)q:are u happy wid what u have in life right now??
a:obviously...no..(still waiting for some1 to return to my arm..)
20)last thing u wanna say b4 u end this quit.
~any1 wanna play this kind of game please kindly let me off-.-''..
coz it really waste my time and sux-.-''
~when u waiting for some1 u truely love to return to u,it really feel miserable..
especially when he/she will nvr come back forever and ever again..

well.
im done....
so today i close vats..
i and brother,harith..
v both dun like xiao ping and kam yeng that much ever since that...
so v decided to press 1st to 4th floor after v leave the lift..
some more put the cotton at the door so that the lift will nvr close the door
and they cant coming up...
but in the end..
v jus cant do it..
and throw away the cotton and let it be..

2008-05-01T12:40:00.000-07:00

2nd may..
well..
today's work quite ok..
easy and free at the 1st place..
do hots,den stock up premium toys..
the guy attachment from funan said that ..
''wa..ur job so nice''
i said..
''no,no,no...im very busy 1''
he said,
really??
''ya,im busy to act busy"i replied..
-.-'
well...
close lobby at nite...
been very slow coz customer keep in...
if nt faizal help,
think gonna b finish at 0230 ba..
that eleein keep noisy bside me=.='
well...
she did asked me a question..
will u bear to leave singapore??
i stunt..
and stunt..
i shake my head..
and then suddenly quiet...
how i wish to tell her..
the reason i stay in singapore is alrdy gone..
(bcoz of some1)
i had waited for so long..
i had tolerant for so much..
but everything i get is nt wad i wan..
i noe if i tell elein i leave bcz of 'her' again..
she will sure said''blah blah blah''
well...
she said need a black and white from me..
but i said i dunno how to write..
seriously...
i really dunno how alrdy...-.-'
haiss..

我拼了命地守候着电话,
期望有一天你会打电话来,
哪怕是短短的几句话又或者是一封信息都已经足够了.
可是,我左盼右望,
这电话始终都还只是空白一片的...

2008-04-30T10:14:00.001-07:00

1st may...
well ..
its been few days since my last blog..
nth much happened..
but very tired..
just..plain tired..
feel that i got fever nw..
been 2 days nvr sleep..
jux now work 7th days..
well..
since ntg to do at offday..
no1 ask me out too..
so why not??
im nt that stupid to wait 4 her to ask me out anymore..
everytime cheat myself,
she will ask me out..
but im clearly understand that she wun..
earn money better..
can enjoy buy thing after getting my pay..
baiklah..
pompuan ni..
mmg aku x paham sangat ..
oh well..
maybe better dun fallen 4 a girl too..
this species very dangerous..-.-'
coz always say something that different from wat they thinking..
so~~!!!
i and my brother vowed that----
no more love...
fucked off u all girls..
if wan..
come and after me..
ok..gonna bcome panda le..
nite...

2008-04-27T09:03:00.001-07:00

28th april..
well..
the time now is 0003 ..
im still lying on my bed..
i knew some1 did on9 @msn too..
but jux dun wanna talk to her anymore..
(dunno wad to talk wid her too)
since im nt longer in her heart,
so better leave her..
why nt?
been giving up$$ jus 4 her..
but get ntg in the end..
lol..
haiss..
she off9 le ba..
nvm..
she wun read my blog too..
thats good..
at least she's nw more devoted than b4..
wun love others so easily..
(cheat myself maybe)
ok..
tired..
babye..

regretness

2008-04-27T01:30:00.000-07:00

well..
on mc today..
feel so so so hungry now can??
lol...
haiss...
wad am i going to do later??
amk hub watch movie or wad?
think most probably ba...
no mood to work..
moodswing...
izzit their so call as 'geng nian qi'??
omg..
i really old alrdy...
i think she wun gif me a call or sms ba..
coz tat day alrdy ask her delete my url and dun read my blog anymore..
so now..
she and i are??
stranger...ntg..??
and maybe once or even until now that im still a liar to her..
somemore flirt ba..
nvm ...
no matter wad i said is alrdy useless le..
she believe in wad she believe..
im still i myself..
my life still go on as usual as i really nvr do the thing she think i am...
well...
so,
i think there's no more chance for us to see each other again..
and its for sure..
coz i wun contact her unless she contact me herself..
but,
according to her character...
think..she wun ba..
haiss...
wad to do?
ppl noe her schedule..
i dunno...
ppl can meet more wid her while me...
she no nid to spare a thought for me coz im nobody to her...
while everyday and nite she is the only 1 who own my whole mind..
haiss..
regretness...

无言

2008-04-26T15:02:00.000-07:00

4月27日,
再过48天,
也许少过48天...
我已经坦然地面对我该要面对的...
我想,
赖了这么久的床,
这应该也是我该清醒的时候了...
这梦境有喜有乐,
当然也有悲伤....
短暂的甜蜜加上少许的幸福早已经被阵阵的伤害给掩埋着了...
我试着找了好久,
终于让我找到了好的藉口来骗自己不再去想她..
不再去爱她...
这所有的一切将被我淡淡地忘记....

the last words...

2008-04-26T00:56:00.000-07:00

26th april..
well...
jux wake up a while..
ytd slp from 12 am i think till just now...
haiss...
super tired...
lazy to care abt something...
my mind is getting more and more complicated..
somethings juz confusing me...
well.
gonna prepare for work in no time...
but still super tired..
think sure die when later work
oh yea..
有时候拥有不一定快乐,
放弃了,也未必会受伤..
这句话,
我一直都用来骗着自己..

Tired ah~~~!!!!

2008-04-24T12:42:00.000-07:00

25th april..
well..
its so so tired today...
then,
doing pak sink..
haiss...
as usual..
do counter's runner..
den do inside kitchen..
go inter ts ice(ice machine broken)
lol...
my back so pain can..
and my wrist injured..
lol..
haiss...
another bad news!!
i kena gap buster again..!!!!!
wad the fuck izzit...
why must me again..??
100%..
den if today bee sim nvr tell me,
seriously i dunno i get it..
-.-'
haiss..
seems like i gonna do counter for the next coming gap buster..
wth...
nvm..
nt i wanted to show off,
its my third time "get the "bastard" "
but i really dun wan kena it coz have to do counter more..
like very sian...
somemore last time hear them said is 50 bucks..
but now only 15 bucks..
and somemore!!!
its ntuc voucher..!!!
sux rite??
if cash better..
at least can buy the thing i wan.....
nvm,
night all my fren..

haiss..

2008-04-23T11:19:00.000-07:00

24th april...
well..
its been so so long that i nvr blog le..
and equal to that i had quit smoking for how long le..
haiss...
quarrel..quarrel..and quarrel..
erm...
oh ya,
er jie married le..
they held it at their condo...
so nice can..
many ppl celebrate..
and..
i almost cry when the moment they said,i do...
i was wondering..
is this nt going to belong to me??
ya..
i think so ba..
dad asked me this at a corner ...
v had man to man talk too...
'when u going to work as ur pay so low'??
'why nt come back and help'?
'u can eat and live as much as u like,somemore got higher pay'
and...
haiss...
look at pa..
his eyes..im speechless..
he look older and weaker..
i really confused..
wad should i do??
money??or love??
i really im a mess...
asked her to unlink me..
and also nt to read my blog anymore...
she said will delete all my contact too...
wad i wanna tell u is..
i had delete ur number from my fon long time ago,
but i jux cant delete it from my mind...
too many things...
haiss...
if u really wanna ask me wad i wan from u..
my answer is..
will u give me a chance and be my wife again?
i promise i will give u happiness as much as i can...
but i think even if tell u le,
u also wun agree...
my waiting is in vain le..

nice song

2008-04-23T04:51:00.001-07:00

on a dark dessert highway
cool wind in my hair
warm smell of colitas
rising up through the air
up ahead in the distance
i saw a shimmering night
my head grew heavy and my sight grew dim
i had to stop for the night
there she stood in the doorway
i heard the mission bell
and i was thinking to myself
this could be heaven or this could be hell
then she lit up the candle
and she showed me the way
there were voices down the corridor
i thought i heard them say
welcome to the hotel california
such a lovely place x3
plenty of room at the hotel california
anytime of year x2
you can find it here
her mind is tiffany twisted
she got the mercedes benz
she got a lot of pretty,pretty boy
that she calls friends
how they dance in the courtyard
sweet summer sweat
some dance to remember
some dance to forget
so i called up the captain
please bring me my wine
he said,we haven had that spirit here since 1969
and still those voices are calling from far way
wake you up in the middle of the night
just to hear them say
welcome to the hotel california
such a lovely place x3
they're livin it up at the hotel california
what a nice surprise x2
bring you alibis
mirrors on the ceiling
the pink champagne on ice
and she said,
we are all just prisoners here
of our own device
and in the master chambers
the gather for the feast
the stabbed it with their steely knives
but they just cant kill the beast
last thing i remember
i was running for the door
i had to find the passage back
to the place i was before
'relax' said the night man
we are programmed to receive
you can checkout anytime you like
but you can never leave

single??or couple better??

2008-04-10T10:02:00.000-07:00

11th april..
erm..
today i made it..
i din even touch 1 stick!!!!
erm...
izzit suppose to celebrate??
lol...
dunno la...
well...
its been 6days ...
nvm...
think it will still go on ba..
i knew it too much..
somebody jux wun tried contact..
and i think its gonna till i back h/town lo..
(even after 4 mths)
well...
its another 9 more days...
wahahaha
still countdown 4 2nd sis...
so envious...
nvm,
single maybe better...
at least no need to feel trouble when ur another half is sad,
angry,
moodless.....
or anything la...
coz i really wonder why somebody can be like that...
i knew how she is like..
but jus dunno how to adapt to it..
well...

maybe i should go even w/o farewell ...
isnt it better??
somemore i think she wun care ba...
oh yeah..
should i change my blog again..??
haiss..
see ba...

10th april..

2008-04-09T11:56:00.000-07:00

10th april..
well..
think gonna clubbin alone at the 1st place..
but after considered...
think better nt ba..
waste $ cum my energy..
somemore...
its so boring can..
haiss...
been at least 2 boxes a day recently..
nvm..
sis's big day is getting closer and close...
wow...
erm...
hais..
4 mths away..
and my permit is gonna be useless...
4get it..
no1 will hope i stay...
jux wait 4 the coming of the time..
so she really wun need to contact me anymore...
oh..
gonna play guitar and creat my song le..
nite all..

haiiss..

2008-04-08T09:15:00.000-07:00

09th april...
erm..
its been so long that nvr see sui keng come and work
fially that i saw her at monday(7th april)..
its been so sad to see her in this state..
i can tell she kena stroke..
but i din say it out..
her tears keep falling from her eyes..
i dunno how to console her...
only take tissue 4 her ..
ask her to rest more...
i almost cry too when i saw her cry..
haiss..
may god bless her..
later offday le..
think..
nvm its impossible that some1 will contact me..
or somemore even will ask me out...
4get it..