Here's a story of a boy,
Living in the emo world,
A hidden note, A secret crush,
A little girl who will never talk to him again for forever.

Well, I'm standing in the crowd,
And when you smile I check you out,
But you don't even know im still waiting for you,
You've too many suitor,

And I want you too know,
If you lose your way,
I won't let you go.

If I cut my hair,
If I change my clothes,
Will you notice me?

If I bite my lip,
If I say hello,
Will you notice me?


PROFILEY

An introduction about yourself (:
kevin
bitter 20 Single/ Attached

DESIRESY
Your desires! no more love/Girlfriend -- her.
Happiness
live alone/Tiongxim to her 1year 6months
Back to singapore
earn my own BMW

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Wednesday, April 30, 2008
10:14 AM

1st may...
well ..
its been few days since my last blog..
nth much happened..
but very tired..
just..plain tired..
feel that i got fever nw..
been 2 days nvr sleep..
jux now work 7th days..
well..
since ntg to do at offday..
no1 ask me out too..
so why not??
im nt that stupid to wait 4 her to ask me out anymore..
everytime cheat myself,
she will ask me out..
but im clearly understand that she wun..
earn money better..
can enjoy buy thing after getting my pay..
baiklah..
pompuan ni..
mmg aku x paham sangat ..
oh well..
maybe better dun fallen 4 a girl too..
this species very dangerous..-.-'
coz always say something that different from wat they thinking..
so~~!!!
i and my brother vowed that----
no more love...
fucked off u all girls..
if wan..
come and after me..
ok..gonna bcome panda le..
nite...

Will you ever notice me...

Sunday, April 27, 2008
9:03 AM

28th april..
well..
the time now is 0003 ..
im still lying on my bed..
i knew some1 did on9 @msn too..
but jux dun wanna talk to her anymore..
(dunno wad to talk wid her too)
since im nt longer in her heart,
so better leave her..
why nt?
been giving up$$ jus 4 her..
but get ntg in the end..
lol..
haiss..
she off9 le ba..
nvm..
she wun read my blog too..
thats good..
at least she's nw more devoted than b4..
wun love others so easily..
(cheat myself maybe)
ok..
tired..
babye..

Will you ever notice me...

1:30 AM

well..
on mc today..
feel so so so hungry now can??
lol...
haiss...
wad am i going to do later??
amk hub watch movie or wad?
think most probably ba...
no mood to work..
moodswing...
izzit their so call as 'geng nian qi'??
omg..
i really old alrdy...
i think she wun gif me a call or sms ba..
coz tat day alrdy ask her delete my url and dun read my blog anymore..
so now..
she and i are??
stranger...ntg..??
and maybe once or even until now that im still a liar to her..
somemore flirt ba..
nvm ...
no matter wad i said is alrdy useless le..
she believe in wad she believe..
im still i myself..
my life still go on as usual as i really nvr do the thing she think i am...
well...
so,
i think there's no more chance for us to see each other again..
and its for sure..
coz i wun contact her unless she contact me herself..
but,
according to her character...
think..she wun ba..
haiss...
wad to do?
ppl noe her schedule..
i dunno...
ppl can meet more wid her while me...
she no nid to spare a thought for me coz im nobody to her...
while everyday and nite she is the only 1 who own my whole mind..
haiss..
regretness...

Will you ever notice me...

Saturday, April 26, 2008
3:02 PM

4月27日,
再过48天,
也许少过48天...
我已经坦然地面对我该要面对的...
我想,
赖了这么久的床,
这应该也是我该清醒的时候了...
这梦境有喜有乐,
当然也有悲伤....
短暂的甜蜜加上少许的幸福早已经被阵阵的伤害给掩埋着了...
我试着找了好久,
终于让我找到了好的藉口来骗自己不再去想她..
不再去爱她...
这所有的一切将被我淡淡地忘记....

Will you ever notice me...

12:56 AM

26th april..
well...
jux wake up a while..
ytd slp from 12 am i think till just now...
haiss...
super tired...
lazy to care abt something...
my mind is getting more and more complicated..
somethings juz confusing me...
well.
gonna prepare for work in no time...
but still super tired..
think sure die when later work
oh yea..
有时候拥有不一定快乐,
放弃了,也未必会受伤..
这句话,
我一直都用来骗着自己..

Will you ever notice me...

Thursday, April 24, 2008
12:42 PM

25th april..
well..
its so so tired today...
then,
doing pak sink..
haiss...
as usual..
do counter's runner..
den do inside kitchen..
go inter ts ice(ice machine broken)
lol...
my back so pain can..
and my wrist injured..
lol..
haiss...
another bad news!!
i kena gap buster again..!!!!!
wad the fuck izzit...
why must me again..??
100%..
den if today bee sim nvr tell me,
seriously i dunno i get it..
-.-'
haiss..
seems like i gonna do counter for the next coming gap buster..
wth...
nvm..
nt i wanted to show off,
its my third time "get the "bastard" "
but i really dun wan kena it coz have to do counter more..
like very sian...
somemore last time hear them said is 50 bucks..
but now only 15 bucks..
and somemore!!!
its ntuc voucher..!!!
sux rite??
if cash better..
at least can buy the thing i wan.....
nvm,
night all my fren..

Will you ever notice me...

Wednesday, April 23, 2008
11:19 AM

24th april...
well..
its been so so long that i nvr blog le..
and equal to that i had quit smoking for how long le..
haiss...
quarrel..quarrel..and quarrel..
erm...
oh ya,
er jie married le..
they held it at their condo...
so nice can..
many ppl celebrate..
and..
i almost cry when the moment they said,i do...
i was wondering..
is this nt going to belong to me??
ya..
i think so ba..
dad asked me this at a corner ...
v had man to man talk too...
'when u going to work as ur pay so low'??
'why nt come back and help'?
'u can eat and live as much as u like,somemore got higher pay'
and...
haiss...
look at pa..
his eyes..im speechless..
he look older and weaker..
i really confused..
wad should i do??
money??or love??
i really im a mess...
asked her to unlink me..
and also nt to read my blog anymore...
she said will delete all my contact too...
wad i wanna tell u is..
i had delete ur number from my fon long time ago,
but i jux cant delete it from my mind...
too many things...
haiss...
if u really wanna ask me wad i wan from u..
my answer is..
will u give me a chance and be my wife again?
i promise i will give u happiness as much as i can...
but i think even if tell u le,
u also wun agree...
my waiting is in vain le..

Will you ever notice me...

4:51 AM

on a dark dessert highway
cool wind in my hair
warm smell of colitas
rising up through the air
up ahead in the distance
i saw a shimmering night
my head grew heavy and my sight grew dim
i had to stop for the night
there she stood in the doorway
i heard the mission bell
and i was thinking to myself
this could be heaven or this could be hell
then she lit up the candle
and she showed me the way
there were voices down the corridor
i thought i heard them say
welcome to the hotel california
such a lovely place x3
plenty of room at the hotel california
anytime of year x2
you can find it here
her mind is tiffany twisted
she got the mercedes benz
she got a lot of pretty,pretty boy
that she calls friends
how they dance in the courtyard
sweet summer sweat
some dance to remember
some dance to forget
so i called up the captain
please bring me my wine
he said,we haven had that spirit here since 1969
and still those voices are calling from far way
wake you up in the middle of the night
just to hear them say
welcome to the hotel california
such a lovely place x3
they're livin it up at the hotel california
what a nice surprise x2
bring you alibis
mirrors on the ceiling
the pink champagne on ice
and she said,
we are all just prisoners here
of our own device
and in the master chambers
the gather for the feast
the stabbed it with their steely knives
but they just cant kill the beast
last thing i remember
i was running for the door
i had to find the passage back
to the place i was before
'relax' said the night man
we are programmed to receive
you can checkout anytime you like
but you can never leave

Will you ever notice me...

Thursday, April 10, 2008
10:02 AM

11th april..
erm..
today i made it..
i din even touch 1 stick!!!!
erm...
izzit suppose to celebrate??
lol...
dunno la...
well...
its been 6days ...
nvm...
think it will still go on ba..
i knew it too much..
somebody jux wun tried contact..
and i think its gonna till i back h/town lo..
(even after 4 mths)
well...
its another 9 more days...
wahahaha
still countdown 4 2nd sis...
so envious...
nvm,
single maybe better...
at least no need to feel trouble when ur another half is sad,
angry,
moodless.....
or anything la...
coz i really wonder why somebody can be like that...
i knew how she is like..
but jus dunno how to adapt to it..
well...

maybe i should go even w/o farewell ...
isnt it better??
somemore i think she wun care ba...
oh yeah..
should i change my blog again..??
haiss..
see ba...

Will you ever notice me...

Wednesday, April 9, 2008
11:56 AM

10th april..
well..
think gonna clubbin alone at the 1st place..
but after considered...
think better nt ba..
waste $ cum my energy..
somemore...
its so boring can..
haiss...
been at least 2 boxes a day recently..
nvm..
sis's big day is getting closer and close...
wow...
erm...
hais..
4 mths away..
and my permit is gonna be useless...
4get it..
no1 will hope i stay...
jux wait 4 the coming of the time..
so she really wun need to contact me anymore...
oh..
gonna play guitar and creat my song le..
nite all..

Will you ever notice me...

Tuesday, April 8, 2008
9:15 AM

09th april...
erm..
its been so long that nvr see sui keng come and work
fially that i saw her at monday(7th april)..
its been so sad to see her in this state..
i can tell she kena stroke..
but i din say it out..
her tears keep falling from her eyes..
i dunno how to console her...
only take tissue 4 her ..
ask her to rest more...
i almost cry too when i saw her cry..
haiss..
may god bless her..
later offday le..
think..
nvm its impossible that some1 will contact me..
or somemore even will ask me out...
4get it..

Will you ever notice me...

Monday, April 7, 2008
12:33 PM

08th april...
well...
ytd was mum's bdae..
called home..
and then mum picked up the fon...
nagging me why last week nvr go home??
why nvr tell them...
but i noe it out of her concern and her love to me...
i love u mum...
thx 4 ur concern...
erm...
will b work at afternoon shift this whole week ba...
well...
although pay lesser..
but its ok ba...
jux knew that 1st sis had applied visa 4 going to japan..
and ya..
its her dunno how many times for overseas alrdy...
so nice...
haiss...
i wanna it too...
2nd sis gonna celebrate her engage at her fiance hs..
wow...
jie...
wish u the happiest women in this world...
and lastly..
from 3 love marks to 2 love marks..
drop 1 alrdy..
nvm..
it jux the matter of sooner or later that will bcome even no namelist..
everytime..
still the same ending evr since i tried so hard...
maybe its i think too much..
but too many thing had proven of it..
even if u wanna delete it from the namelist..
i wun feel surprise..
disappoint is just a of course..
gonna pray and bathing le..
nite..

Will you ever notice me...

Saturday, April 5, 2008
1:21 PM

been silent the whole working day..
suddenly..
all ppl were like ....
"why ur face so black?"
"why u look so glum?"
blah blah blah...
"are u ok not?"
when im nt noisy..
u all ask me like this..
when im noisy..
u all say im very irritating..
sorry..
juz got no mood ...
maybe will keep going on like this ba..
im trying to make a better temper..
when i silent that means...
i no mood..
when i no mood..
that means..
PLEASE DUN TRY TO TALK TO ME UNLESS ITS URGENT!!!
lol...
been 3 box within 1 day..
broke my own record..
haiss..

Will you ever notice me...

1:16 PM

6th apr,
when inside the bus..
on the way to work..
saw a couple quarrel non stop..
although girl keep shouting at boy..
but boy juz bear wid it..
he try make girl calm down..
he failed many times...
yet,he din give up...
finally..
girl's calm down...
she put her own head on boy's shoulder...
and den...
they bcome a lovely couple again..
why??
why when everytime we quarrel..
i tried to apologize 1st no matter wad...
but in the end..
we still end up like this??

Will you ever notice me...

12:53 AM

hais..
2 more weeks to go..
and so fast that 2nd sis gonna ROM!!!
it let me happy coz she is the 1 who dote me most..
but it let me feel sad and jealous too..
when is my turn??
or...
nvr will?
haiss...
i really dunno...
she's on msn too..
but i really dunno
wad to say...
so din even say hi...
and then..
i hurt my hand again..
i punched the wall again..
haiss...
why everytime must have such an ending??
i also dunno..
so god,
please do show me the path...



im still waiting..
but izzit will comes true?
izzit gonna take another 1 yr??
i alrdy dunno..
maybe she wun contact me anymore too..
now alrdy almost finish my 2nd box of cig..
back pain..

Will you ever notice me...

Friday, April 4, 2008
10:30 AM

5th april..
well..
due to some1's request,
i wun write anything abt her in my blog...
(i try hard)
its been heartbreaking when i received the msges...
think maybe v gonna stop contact each other ..
and ya,
its again...for alrdy dunno how many times...
sry 4 everything...
emo..
try hard to act happy,
but failed too...
i noe..
maybe im sensitive,
maybe im stubborn..
and somemore irritating...
sry..
原来就连默默地等待你也不容许...
and now ...
i really hard to insist on why i wanna stay at s'pore..
b4 this,
i stay here coz of u..
and now..
really wonder if im gonna continue my permit ...
today..
suppose to be my quit smoking 1st day..
but ,
i smoke 1 box within 1 hr in the end..
i really wonder why 4 a lot of thing...
crying maybe the best way to release my sadness..
but the worse is..
i cant bring myself cry out..
im still bear in it..
也许从头到尾,
也只是我自己一个人自作多情吧..
sorry..
do contact me if...
hais..
sorry X10000000000000000000000000000000000times...

Will you ever notice me...

Thursday, April 3, 2008
10:59 AM

4th april...
hais..
maybe..
im really lost..
she choose to be wif steven..
and maybe..
i really shouldn...
4get it..
why??
why am i such a failure...
maybe 在她的心里面,
我真的早已经不存在..
不重要了...
为什么?
别人要和她连续几天出门,
她没拒绝...
而我...
算了..
也许天主给的暗示已经够明显了..
算了..
如果她注定是我的,
不管怎样她还都会是我的...
我已经等了464天..但..
唉!.................

Will you ever notice me...

Wednesday, April 2, 2008
7:06 PM

03 april..
hais...
she did call me at the mid night ard 2.49am..
i was asleep at tht time...
but thks to angel sms then that stupid fon wake me up...
it was so hard 4 me to fallen asleep lo...
i did call back too..
she didn reply.
haiss...
ytd told 2nd sis abt ite failed ...
she ask me told mum anot??
haiss...
she asked something that i also confuse...
what i wan to be and wad job should i continue>??
i really dunno..
stunt 4 a long time...
haiss...
think a lot abt my future..
am i able to support my ownself?
if nt,
how to support a family??haiss..
nvm..
btw..
rebellious,
who are u actually??
u said u dunno me well...
but i dunno who are u at all...
i did found her,
but maybe its nt the rite timing...
hais..
gonna go and work at 1.30 pm later..
poof!!

Will you ever notice me...

12:17 AM

2nd april..
well..
i had received the result from ite..
and i couldnt get in..
that mean im gonna leave very soon..
maybe..
maybe that's the answer from god ba..
i prayed,
and i told god in this way,
i let u arrange all my fate,
if u think im nt the 1 for her,
pls hint me or show me the way..
maybe let her call me or sms ...
ask me out b4 3plus or 4?
but now is alrdy 3 plus le...
and she's going out wif steven ba..
haiss..
moodless..
ytd..
i really dunno how to face her too..
god..
pls show me a better way..

Will you ever notice me...