well..
23days more to go..
was sleep late and almost late for work..
but heng nvr..
even punch in earlier..
today down closer..
brother nvr come..
si bei funny..
ask me to tell harith be careful..
haha..
not my business too..
who care..
well..
nvm..nt my business too..
came out feel gt few pair of eyes keep looking at me..
hack care..
jux walk away..
shawn say something..
but i my mind cannot hear it..
ya..must be illusion..
well..
today pak sin again..
quite fast..
开始怀念所有的一切.
后诲当初没有好好把握.
紧紧地握着..
飞走了..
Will you ever notice me...
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
1:17 PM
21st may,
well..
time flies..
and its alrdy 21 st today..
i noe its alrdy a set and no more miracle will be appear..
but seems like im still got little hope inside my heart,
hoping that xxxxx will contact me..
but as i said its impossible,
well..
wads bygone is alrdy bygone to her..
as for me......
i really dunno..
haiss..
been fed up when today doing work..
got an auntie name duno wad..
lets call her x..
im order taker while she runner,
she serve 1 happy meal in abt 5 mins..
i din sound her..
coz i said i wanna change my temper..
so i bear wid it..
the next customer come,
order happy meal again!
she said me,
hey boy,next time when serve hm pls give toy..
i have been felt provoked..
but still i bear wid it,
after that,
ctm come and ask for sauce while im serveing other ctm..
she stand there look like nobody business..
so i gave ctm the sauces..
and ya,
im angry again..
but...
im bear wid it again..
she serve very long time,
so i decided to help her so can serve faster somemore at peak hr,
i dun wan kena gb no 100%
and after i help her i said dun jux wait for burger but pls take other order's drink 1st pls,
den,
she said im very proud,v rude..
wat the fuck!!!!
i bear wid it again!!!!!
jibai....
after that,
i help her take water,
she stand at the middle,
so i cannot take ice..
i said this'excuse me,u mind let me take ice pls'???
den she said this make me fed up..
''may i noe wad's ur name''?
i show her my name tag..
''pls rmb my name,go complain as u like,i dun scared u''
by the time jeeny is just around and chat wid boss..
she said im v rude to her..
hey hey hey!!!
bcareful,
u are consider very lucky alrdy,
if u nt attachment,
i had scold u since the 1st time u make me angry!!
u stupid idiot..
if nt bcox u are old and i respect u..
u think im so nice huh??
every1 got their limit..
dun step over it..
i will shout u infrot of managers and ctms or even jenny(oc)
who care,,
as long as im rite...
fuck off u stupid old folk..
see wad??
keep see me when i going in kitchen..
i noe ur manager too..
dun think the tiger nt biting is a sick cat..!!
once u step my tail..
i will make u sorry ..
oh no,
its sorry also useless..
this is for u below...
CAUTION:
CHILDREN BELOW 18 YRS OLD ARE NT ALLOW TO READ..
FUCK U U OLD FOLK,
PPL RESPECT U ULAO KOK KOK,
BUT WAD U DID IS ONLY LIKE KAM GONG!!
KNNBCCB!!
DIAO NI LAO BU DIAO NI HAI!!
ARGHXX....
forget it..
phew..
had supper wid harith,muhsin,uncle yeo at pasir ris..
coz harith gt many 7th days recently..
he said he wan treat us..
had mee bandung..
its nice!!
well..
jenny didchat wid me ,faizal and a malaysian crew dunno wad name,
she ask her nt to tell us that she arldy gt bf..
wth..
srry i dun interest in india ok??
den i told jenny,
so sry,
i gt no more love for gals..
well..
she gt ntg to say..
well...
24days more to go..
less than a mth..
think she wun contact me s she alrdy deleted my fon no,
somemore...
hais...
forget it..
Will you ever notice me...
Thursday, May 15, 2008
12:57 PM
16th may..
well..
abt few days nvr blog ba..
nvm also..
no 1 will wanna read mine too..
well..
did went tm to meet angie and geral for dinner..
its like finally-.-
coz from few mths ago ask her and den kena put aeroplane ..
nvm,
anw,its nice..although its only a short while..
went pasta..
they start eating 1st coz i was late..
eating beef ball..
wel..
after that went cs for shop a while..(onlt they shop)
on the way saw bernet,
so he follow..
was surprise that he's gonna married and b a father..
erm..
did go back and gym..
was happy and feel good tou im very tired..
still,i cannot fall asleep,
seriously dunno why..
had made my own meal start from today..
gonna follow my food schedule from today onwards..
i wanna grow big!!
anw..
ytd trained my tight..
damn pain can..
but nvm,
it means that im growing..
wahahaha..
haiss..
suddenly tot of wad some1's blog..
she will marry any1 that who take away her 1st....
she lied..
and..
nvm..
其实死神根本就没有什么笔记本,
死神所谓的笔记本,
是他的心和脑袋里的记忆还有他的真爱..
死神曾经这样说道,
他是不会离开拥有死神笔记本的人半步.
除非是此拥有者自行弃权.
前年的某一天,
死神把他的笔记本给了一个女生.
死神很照顾她,
给这女生她要的一切.
因为不是这么容易就能得到死神的笔记本.
但是有一天,
因为女生觉得死神天天和自己在一起很烦,
便自行弃绝了笔记本的拥有权,
虽然死神觉得很难过,
但他决定尊重女生的要求.
其实,
死神的心里面仍然对女生念念不忘.
他期望着女生有一天会回心转意回到自己的身边,
但是,
日子一天一天的过去了.
女生始终没有回头的意思,
死神开始绝望,
发誓从此以后不再让任何人拥有自己的笔记本...
待续...
Will you ever notice me...
Saturday, May 10, 2008
1:50 PM
5月11日,
凌晨4点51分,
宁静的夜晚里,
迫使孤独的死神开始胡思乱想..
他很寂寞,
想找些事情来做..
因为只有这样他才不会从犯过错..
想着想着,
就这样..
他开始发起脾气来...
因为真的没事做..
他开始拿起手中的笔记本...
别误会,
他并不是在写名单..
而是随便涂鸦-.-
天空下起雨来,
他的心情更是烦躁.
他轻轻地叹了一口气..
唉!!
说道:''这世界真是无聊啊!''
说完便悄悄地往回死神的国度...
Will you ever notice me...
Friday, May 9, 2008
2:19 PM
10th may...
well...
ytd din sleep after work..
coz go california for work out!!
yeah hoo~!!
feel great can~!!??
so nice..
tou my mucles now very pain..
but really enjoy it..
phew..
later wanna do it again..
my motivation is coming back..
but seems like its too late too-.-
nvm..
still carry on..
haha..
er...
closing grill..
finish at 3 exact..
well..
its nt me slow..
but it shows that im punctual..
hahahaha..
and im able to finish my job within time..
lalalala!~~~
officially..
i now address myself as--死神
我不是因为具有死神的力量而称自己为死神..
而是因为死神的世界是孤独的..
冷漠且残酷..
无情,惹人厌是我的个性..
我不想改..也改不了..
你可以对我好,
可是我却不一定会对你好..
当我对你笑的时候,
请小心!!
因为死神的脸上不应该有表情!!
小心我!远离我..
因为你不会了解我在想什么,
我要的是什么..
也许,
我的死亡笔记名单里的下一个受害者....
很可能......
就是你~!!!!!!!!!!
Will you ever notice me...
Thursday, May 8, 2008
1:08 PM
怎么隐藏我的悲伤,
你离去的背影
你的花香来得匆忙
一瞬间地灰散
来不及挽回,我已经跟不上
你狠心丢下我独自的离开
让我自己一个人悲伤
我会看着你,
慢慢忘记你
直到最后那一站
想念的季节
拥抱着怀念
都不能挽回这一切
我会忍着痛
慢慢离开你
至少这是你要的
希望这一切你不会发现
因为我的爱不必让你知道..
Will you ever notice me...
12:54 PM
9th may..
well..
as usual..
closing just now..
pak sin again...
well..
dunno why so fast my turn again..
din bring my glove..
so end up use the ''public'' 1..-.-
which is the behind then any1 who forgot can use it..
well..
today finish faster..
dunno why..
depend on my mood ba..
still rmb last time do till ot 5 mins..
my performance been down ever since..
no matter do wad station..
haiss..
nvm,something most important is gone..
once lost it..u can nvr get it back..
coz the opportunity is over..
and somemore the timing is nt right anymore..
phew..
really have to admit that im getting older...
but when everytime i said so..
auntie them will say this..
''u like this call old,then v not very old till si bei jia lat?''
-.-
37 days more..
well..
i had to admit that i should really face the fact..
'' ''
dun ask me wad..
let it be my own secret ba..
its useless even say out anw..
phew..
should i keep nt reading her blog or..
well..
maybe really should gif up..
sian...
tmr dunno do wad time..
forgot see schedule..
die..later morning call them..
nite..
Will you ever notice me...
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
12:14 PM
不管前面的路有多长..
就算知道那是坎坷的..
经过之后也一定会留下伤痕..
我还是会坦然,勇敢地面对..
哪怕把自己弄得满身是伤..
最后剩下的,
也只有我对你那在世界上最真诚的爱!!
我爱你!!
Will you ever notice me...
11:57 AM
8th may...
well...
so its 38days more..
and i still countdown myself..
erm...
just now my day just so so lo...
wanna go ehub see see de..
but like very far like that..
so intend to watch movie iron man again at amk hub..
but end up call lay kiang for lim teh at raffles place..
well..
met him ard 7 plus ba..
we talk alot..
till 9 plus den he go home annd i go amk hub 4 my movie..
well..
the show start at 10 pm,
so i eat beef noodle soup as usual as when i go amkhub..
show ended at 12 am..
wana eat supper nearby..
but long q..
so take cab back home den walk to kopitiam eat fried bee hoon..
oh well..
and then ...
online ..till now..
haiss...
really ntg much happening...
maybe this is how my life should ending here...
oh yea..
b4 i forget,
i read a guy's blog..
he criticize her gf like so good..
the word he use is so perfect..
his experience jux like me..
well..
but its all bygone le..
gonna sleep now..
maybe she really forget abt me..
coz that im so irritating to her..
so...
nvm....
Will you ever notice me...
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
12:52 PM
Will you ever notice me...
12:13 PM
7th may..
well..
was mc on 6th may..
see dr..
tell her my body keep feel itchy..
somemore easy to feel tired no matter how long i had slept..
she tested my blood pressure..
she said my blood pressure is consider high..
and she tested my urine..
i wait..
and wait..
and wait...
result was coming out..
no diabetes..
all ok..
she said maybe that im really too exhaust for work..
and then..
the medical fee's like suckkkkkkkkkkksssssss!!!
41dollars...
-.-'
so i was force to withdraw my money again..
well..
coz b4 i see dr i jux draw $50..
went tm watch iron man after that..
its cool!
i wanna watch it 1 more time!!!~
phew..
oh yea,
thx mavis sister for help me changing this blogskin..
在这蒙蒙胧胧的世界,
雾里看不清是谁.
缘分悄悄经过我身边,
静静的,渐渐的离开我.
已经来不及,
再也挽不回,
不停哭着泪水撒满面...
断了的姻缘,
不再像从前,
就算再努力也没办法挽回.
过去的一切,
记忆早已被瓦解,
直到最后我还是没能了解,,,
Will you ever notice me...
Monday, May 5, 2008
12:57 PM
6TH MAY,
well..
nth much to blog..
as u noe,
my life damn it bored..
nt much happening..
just work and slp and eat..
repeated and repeat again..
lol..
today close center island..
well..
1.30 finish..
and faizal's daughter alrdy full month..
dunno wad to gif him man..
=.='
wow..
so nice..
got own children...
erm..
been accompany harith to posb due to his atm card been''swallowed''
by the atm machine..
he damn fucking asshole tell me this..
im shy to go in ..
i asked,''why u shy''?
he replied,''the girl at the counter so pretty ,i so shy when i saw her''
-.-''
wat the fuck..!!
he will feel shy??
haha....
then in the end,he failed coz of his shyness...
well...
later have to accompany him again..
who ask that v are brother..??
haiss..
bro,
im gonna leave soon..
who's gonna talk ,chat,play...wid u when after im gone??
really miss those days that we had fun..
the brotherhood so strong and tight..
feel so guilty and sad..
pls,promise me u will learn to be strong and...
rmb as much as u can 4 the closing..
dun always depent on others..
so when u are talking..
ppl wun ignore u..
knowledge is ur only power...
haiss..
40days more left,
well..
seems like its really gonna b comes true wad i had said..
为什么这样子?
你拉着我说你有些犹豫,
怎么这样子?
雨还未停你却撑伞要走..
已经习惯不去阻止你,
过好一阵子你就会回来..
印象中的爱情好像顶不住那时间..
为什么这样子?
你看着我说你已经决定..
我拉不住你..
他的手应该比我更暖..
过去变成了日记,
变化成回忆,
慢慢被忘记..
印象中的那爱情好像并不在这世界..
所以你拒绝..
Will you ever notice me...
Saturday, May 3, 2008
1:16 PM
4th may,
well..
as usual,
i do closing just now..
pak sin..
mikel ask me plan myself...
i think its quite too long 4 me nt doing it..
so i planned i myself do it..
customer quite ok..
today's work also quite easy coz im inside kitchen..
hearsay many ppl mc..
haiss..
well..
when finish closing,
shawn ask me open back door and see a gal name stella...
but when i open...
stupid brother..harith suddenly shout this..
''lai lai lai...free fuck or 20 bucks the most''-.-''
wat the...
somemore bhind say..
''got free condom as well''-.-
the gal saw my face=.= nt his..
my image totally spoilt..thx to him...
oh yea..
so fast and its alrdy been 4th le..
haven write my black and white le..
left 42 days only..
and den..
haiss..
nvm,
no1 will miss me..
maybe thats good too...
she only will care abt his attention on her but nt me..
she cried when i ignore her in the past,
but when after she get what she want..
she will start feel that the thing or person is no longer important..
and when i feel sad as how she felt last time...
she was like cruel and totally ignore my pain..
nvm,
it make me see through how cruel she can be,
how heartless she can be,
how selfish she can be....
a lot a lot more...
haiss...maybe ...
Will you ever notice me...
Friday, May 2, 2008
1:52 PM
3rd may..
well.. doesnt wanna do this at the 1st place..
but kena sabo by mavis..
so,
now have to start wid it..
1)Q:how many children do u wan?
A:-.-''...depends...
2)Q:what u want the most now??
A:be the richest man in the world
3)Q:if u can have 1 more dream to come true,what would it be?
A:im the only 1 she love..
4)Q:what are u afraid to lose now?
A:myself
5)Q:do u believe in being in love forever??
A:nope..(obviously bcoz im being hurt deeply)
6)Q:if u meet some1 u love,would u confess to him or her??
A:too bad,no more love in me...
7)Q:what would u do when u are feeling down and depressed?
a:keep quiet and emo..ignore other's concern..
8)q:what are the requirement that u wish from other half?
a:im the only 1 she love..im the 1st place in her heart
9)q:which type of person do u like most?
a:depends..
10)q:do u cherish every single of ur friendship?
a:not really
11)q:how do u feel abt life now?
a:its sux..
12)q:what do u think is the most important thing in ur life?
a:money
13)q:do u find it a necessary for u have a bf or gf?
a:erm...seriously i dunno..
14)q:what do u want ur friend to be like?
a:dunno..jux dun b too sia lan is ok alrdy..
15)q:what kind of friend do u hope to be in ur friends' eyes?
a:the 1 who they cant live w/o...
16)q:if u have a change,which part of ur character would u like to change?
a:being so kind hearted..i should be more heartless..
17)q:if u are feeling low 1 day,who will u go to?
a:obviously..nt her..coz of....so i decided to go to jesus!!
18)q:have u ever really love some1 b4?
a:yes..but too bad its nt a good ending..she din treasure our relationship well!!
19)q:are u happy wid what u have in life right now??
a:obviously...no..(still waiting for some1 to return to my arm..)
20)last thing u wanna say b4 u end this quit.
~any1 wanna play this kind of game please kindly let me off-.-''..
coz it really waste my time and sux-.-''
~when u waiting for some1 u truely love to return to u,it really feel miserable..
especially when he/she will nvr come back forever and ever again..
well.
im done....
so today i close vats..
i and brother,harith..
v both dun like xiao ping and kam yeng that much ever since that...
so v decided to press 1st to 4th floor after v leave the lift..
some more put the cotton at the door so that the lift will nvr close the door
and they cant coming up...
but in the end..
v jus cant do it..
and throw away the cotton and let it be..
Will you ever notice me...
Thursday, May 1, 2008
12:40 PM
2nd may..
well..
today's work quite ok..
easy and free at the 1st place..
do hots,den stock up premium toys..
the guy attachment from funan said that ..
''wa..ur job so nice''
i said..
''no,no,no...im very busy 1''
he said,
really??
''ya,im busy to act busy"i replied..
-.-'
well...
close lobby at nite...
been very slow coz customer keep in...
if nt faizal help,
think gonna b finish at 0230 ba..
that eleein keep noisy bside me=.='
well...
she did asked me a question..
will u bear to leave singapore??
i stunt..
and stunt..
i shake my head..
and then suddenly quiet...
how i wish to tell her..
the reason i stay in singapore is alrdy gone..
(bcoz of some1)
i had waited for so long..
i had tolerant for so much..
but everything i get is nt wad i wan..
i noe if i tell elein i leave bcz of 'her' again..
she will sure said''blah blah blah''
well...
she said need a black and white from me..
but i said i dunno how to write..
seriously...
i really dunno how alrdy...-.-'
haiss..
我拼了命地守候着电话,
期望有一天你会打电话来,
哪怕是短短的几句话又或者是一封信息都已经足够了.
可是,我左盼右望,
这电话始终都还只是空白一片的...
Will you ever notice me...
